Week 30

From my weekly email...

I got flowers today...World's Best Mom!! Happy Mother's day to me!! :)

I'm not sure why, but baby.com didn't send the weekly update. i will forward it when i receive it.

The news for now is about the same. Dr. Morris says baby eli is growing (he says he is big...scary!!). Your uterus should measure around the same length as the number of weeks you are...So, a 28 week baby measures 28cm, but Eli is measuring 31 this week...So, he's not too far ahead of the curve, but he is a little bigger than average! Imagine that with Matt for a dad!! And as far as the doctor can tell (without an ultrasound) my cervix is about the same as 2 weeks ago. I will have an ultrasound today and find out exactly where we are with that. Of course, we are not wanting any changes because we are still trying to avoid "bed rest". I put it in quotations because it is not true bed rest any more. The specialist tells me that it is more like decreased activity with extra time in bed...because of the risk of blood clots. I am feeling good...It feels like a bowling ball is on my bladder/hips, but other than that discomfort and some punches in the gut...i'm well. I have to coax him out from under my ribs sometimes and that is fun, but again, for the most part, i have no complaints!

Also, I have to share a short story...I wore the dress yesterday that I wore the day I lost Judah...I always think of how confident I felt as I put it on that morning going to find out the sex of my baby...and then how empty I felt wearing it as I left the hospital a couple of days later (leaving in maternity wear was heart breaking). As I left the hospital that day, the pianist was playing "Smile". It is one of my favorite songs and now it holds such a special meaning to me...as it is Judah's song. Believe it or not, the same pianist was playing Judah's song as I came off the elevator at the hospital in Judah's dress yesterday. I could do nothing but cry. And when he was finished I walked over and gave him a hug and a big thank you! I shared with him how special that song had become to me...and what it meant to hear it now as I am expecting to take my little boy home with me. He told me to bring my Eli back and he would be happy to play it for us! :) That really meant the world to me!
Well, I hope you have all enjoyed my trip down memory lane! I am so thankful that each of you take the time to read my "baby" notes!

I love you all dearly!

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