Wednesday, July 18, 2007

A Time to Mourn

Ecc. 3:1-4 - 1 "There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven: a time to be born and a time to die...a time to weep and a time to laugh, a time to mourn and a time to dance..."






This is a blog I pulled from my myspace blog, posted 7/18/07. I wanted to catch all up to date on our life...

6/18/07 - we went in for our normal 20 week ultrasound to find out the sex of our baby...we found out he was a boy..and he was healthy...all of the fingers and toes and organs in the right place...but there was something wrong with my cervix. but at that point they felt ok to send me home on bed rest until the next morning when i would come in to meet with the specialist. i went to miss tracy's house (a friend from church) to spend the day being pampered and doing NOTHING. about 1 i started having some light cramping, but nothing too traumatic and i just ignored it, but by 2 it was pretty painful and becomming more frequent. so, i packed up to go back to the hospital. i arrived at labor and delivery around 2:30-3 and they immediately put me on sterroids and some medication to stop contracting...as that is what they thought was going on, but weren't sure how...so, i stayed pretty comfortably until 6 hours later when the meds would run out and i would immediately need more. matt arrived and the doctor came. he doubted i was in labor, as that would not be typical, but he kept me on all of the medication until i could meet with the specialist in the morning.
6/19/07 - we spent the entire morning waiting for the doctor. at this point we assumed i would need surgery to close the cervix and keep the baby in until full term. i had not been allowed to eat since i checked in...by this time my hunger was quite significant and i was MAD!! the doctor was scheduled to arrive at 8, but didn't until 1. he did an ultrasound only to tell us that there was nothing he could do and for me to carry the baby long enough for it to be viable would be a miracle. we cried and prayed and waited. it was only about 30 minutes later when all H-E-L-L broke loose. my water broke and out came about 3 gallons and it wasn't long after that the baby was coming feet first. and after 2 hours of labor he was there...not him, just his little body because when my water broke, his lungs couldn't handle the air. we spent the next few hours crying and visiting with friends. we did hold him for a while and talk with him. it was such a hard experience...he was a whole little man with fingernails and all...so precious...but he was gone. anyway. we had no time to grieve. we had to decide his name...where we would bury him...and fill out the death certificate information...oh, and i forgot to say, we had to decide if we were buying our new (old) home. our poor realtor was trying to stay out of the way, but she needed to know...
6/20/07 - they released me from the hospital and my mom arrived in town with her friend karen. we spent time with them talking and crying. it was rough.
6/24/07 - we had the funeral and buried him with Matt's dad in Pocahontas, AR. everyone was there...even my brother flew in for it. it was so special to share our hearts with our family and receive their comfort.
6/26/07 - my dad and i boarded the plane from little rock to dallas. it was a normal flight and we waited for our plane from dallas to new orleans...it never came!! that was a nightmare...
6/27/07 - we finally got a flight out from dallas to new orleans...dad spent the day with us. we had our final walk through on the house and started packing. dad left around 3. the church family came around 7 to help us pack. it was amazing. they all worked so hard and we got 90 percent of our pod packed up. thank GOD for our church family!!
6/28/07 - packing packing packing
6/29/07 - a few friends came over and helped us finish up...
6/30/07 - we rented a uhaul and moved our stuff over..that was an all day task. ben and kenneth took the truck to unload some stuff at their house around 10pm and it broke down 3 times on the way there. we came out to the last place the broke down to wait on the mechanic. it was on a busy 4 lane road at an intersection...it was CRAZY!! we ended up giving up on the mechanic at around 2am and charged up the battery one last time to get over to their house and unload.
7/1/07 - we had house church...which was nice...because the group was much smaller. i made it through...with only a few people sticking their foot in their mouths. after church we had lunch with june and angela for their birthdays and i went home. matt managed to get the uhaul truck back, thank god that was over.
7/2/07-7/9/07 - time off work. cashio, cochran was so good to let me have plenty of time to grieve. i mostly spent my time off moving in, but it was a blessing to be home. also, this week we spent helping out church's new leadership staff get settled. we helped them move in and buy some big items they needed for their new home.
7/9/07-7/12/07 - this week was tough...i was really emotional at the end of the day. i would leave the office and cry the entire way home. i am so fortunate to have some friends who don't work outside of the home so they were able to be there for me. also, our new women's ministry leader was able to be there for me. God truly surrounded me with the women i needed.

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